Niles, Unwrapped

Niles. Born in '88. Student, (almost) a web designer/developer. Habitual procrastinator, hate that shit but apparently not enough to quit. Music I really like gives me goosebumps. Could use some life experience. So on and so forth.
heythereladybear:

All the kisses.
but, actually

Yes, please.
I haven’t had a good kiss in sooo long. I can remember the last two times and they’ve both left me wanting more.

heythereladybear:

All the kisses.

but, actually

Yes, please.

I haven’t had a good kiss in sooo long. I can remember the last two times and they’ve both left me wanting more.

(Source: life-is-like-a-wineglass)

Shouldering and Solving my own problems

Tomorrow I’m waking up at 7AM, which means should go to sleep early tonight, but only after I make lunch for tomorrow.

In the 3 hours before I have to be at work I have to call Wells Fargo and Direct Loans about the payments that are due, my grandfather who cosigned my private student loan to let him know about why I haven’t paid it yet, and a few people at RIT about registering my co-op so I hopefully won’t have to pay loans for another couple months. Plus get ready for work and make it to the bus on time, unlike today.

At work I have to find out when I’m getting paid because, as you can probably tell, I have bills to pay. Rent ($550), Wells Fargo ($92), Direct Loans ($750!), AT&T ($75). Plus I have to do all the shit to get my car registered, and I don’t even know how much that is gonna be. I’m getting $900+, which is really nice, but I’ll have to pick and choose payments.

I could ask my parents for help but right now they’re paying off a past-due balance to RIT. Plus I just asked them for a ton of money to go get my car and pay for my apartment and to survive. Plus my dad found out he’s only got a job until April; March if he’s lucky. I’ll call my dad in the morning.

I get the feeling that I had an elaborate dream last night

But all I can remember is being in a high-speed car crash on a muddy road with my older brother and an acquaintance I met through one of my best friends, then looking at my barely-conscious and severely dazed self trying to get up off the ground.

Something I never fully got over

It got to me a little more than usual tonight. Driving back to Buffalo, singing along to the radio to try and stay awake, I almost cried during one song in particular.

I really do miss them

I haven’t seen my brother Eric (and his family) much in the past few years. I can count the times on one hand.

  • June 2006 - St Croix - Eric leaves for basic.
  • July 2006 - Eric graduates from basic.
  • June 2010 - Eric brings his family back home while I’m there.
  • January 2012 - I visit Eric and his family in New Mexico.

It sucks. Especially now that I spent a whole week with them and I know that it’s gonna be over a year until I see them again. But at least I know that I will. At that time they’ll be back in Japan. I don’t usually plan that far ahead of time, but this is definitely happening, one way or another.

I WILL BE IN JAPAN BY APRIL 2013.